Still alive although perhaps my kick is a bit weaker

Well here I am on day 3 of my fast, supposed to be a hard one and it's living up to the hype. Woke up feeling weak. Moving more slowly. Slight dizziness. Feel like crap. However, in the afternoon I completely perked up. Took a quick shower, (you aren't supposed to because they worry you will faint but I can't take it anymore) washed my hair and body and feel much better. Fabulous. Wondering if mornings will be particularly hard and afternoons a bit better.

I am amazed that my brain is still working well. I am a bit foggy but not as "dumb" as I had expected to be - a nice surprise. I am losing weight pretty quickly but I know that most will probably suck back onto me when I start to eat again. Life just works that way. I don't have that much more to lose so if I manage a net dump of 5 pounds I will be thrilled. It comes off so damned slowly at the end!

On today's class agenda - a yoga class at 10 which I skipped and Dr. Klaper at 2. I was quite excited to hear him as I am a fan/groupie/sort-of-in-love. Dr. Klaper was terrific. And I came back to the room and have been watching a video on digestion. Here are some highlights for me:

~ Sugar damages your immune system - didn't know that. Once you turn whole grains into flour, it is the same as eating sugar. Dr. K has stopped eating bread on any regular basis and feels better.
~ Keep your belly full of food that doesn't stick to you - never count calories or do portion control - guilt free eating!
~ Eat consciously and with gratitude - don't be a food shoveler
~ If you don't chew your food to a cream, the fiber goes right through you and you miss the nutrients in the food and may as well have not eaten.
~ Nothing wrong with soy - photo estrogens are minimally active and protective against breast cancer.
~ DHA from plants is great - good for skin moisture - buy from health food store - great when combined with EPA.
~ Bio-identical hormones for post-menopausal symptoms are fine in low doses and just for 3-5 years to get you through the worst - use the cream, not the pellets, because you can easily change the dose.

I finally saw my doctor today and he is anticipating an 8 day fast. So I have 5 more days of this. Exam was very thorough.

As I kind of watch myself (an out of body experience?), I am struck by how much I want to eat but I'm not really hungry. Some of it is habit, I think. Some of it is that I want that emotional-comfort that comes from eating. I wonder if that will ever go away? And I hear that when you re-feed, you aren't that hungry and don't eat much for a few days. Damn! I wanted all of that fabulous looking food I saw in Mandy's post immediately!!! And I'm dying for broccoli. Seriously, that is what I am craving. I want bowls and bowls of steamed broccoli. Who'd have thunk it!